So I just sat outside in the garden for the last 40 mintues even though its gone 11pm and its bloody cold out there. 
The reason for this was that I was coming to the end of reading ‘the perks of being a wallflower’ and it just seemed like the right place to sit whilst I finished it.
It was such a great little book and the first one that I have read that I think everyone regardless of what type of books you generally read, you need to check out.  
It’s only a short book, just over 200 pages but it has made me feel such a mix of things whilst reading. I worried about how everything would turn out for the guy, I laughed at the times he shared with friends, felt angry at things that happened to his friends, even wanted to punch him for been so stupid at times. 
But the one thing it made me feel more than anything and is the reason I think I loved it so much was the fact it made me feel rather sad. Not the sad were you want to cry and throw yourself off a bridge, but the happy kind of sad.
The type of sad when you just remember things come and gone. long gone friends and family who you no longer mourn for or miss, but remember the times together instead. The first time you feel a part of something or heard a song you knew would become your favourite. The first time you drank or smoked or kissed someone. 
It really did make me thing about all those teenage years that I wont see again.
What I really liked though was after making me feel that way, It made me realise that though I can’t get that stuff back there is much more to come, even now there are still ‘firsts’ to be had, new friends to make and memories to look back at when I’m even older, and at some point a new girlfriend.

It has made me realise that I really do care a lot about the friends I have, and that I really do need to spend more time with them, as lately I have kind of just retreated in to my own world.

It also made me want a pen pal, I have never written or received a written letter from anyone. I just think it would be a nice thing to have.

Sorry for the really long text post I just felt it I needed to say all that for some reason.
I hope some of you decide to read it. I am tempted to send you all a copy.